notice.

next tuesday, will be the graduation night 08. 2nd project of the 9th student council. well, the thing is i am the program head of the event. ah, i guess everyone is nervous now, seeing that we onli hav 18 ppl to run the whole event. ah well, i wish everyone gd luck, that we will see this through to perfection. n it will be a memorable grad nite for everyone. cmon ppl! lets jiayou!

trust...

so who can i trust?

trust?

trust...

what is trust?
isit jus something that u give, yet expect it to be taken for granted?
isit a promise, that will eventually be broken?
isit a lie, that will somehow be leaked out?
isit an ignorance, that will somehow lead to your downfall?
isit a sin, that deems u a criminal?
isit an object, that is just easily thrown away?
isit something that has no significance? no value? no importance?

i trusted...
i wonder whatever happened to that trust...

now..

din go grandma house.. think might get scolded. well, means no dinner today... who cares anyways...
somehow jus dun feel right... like suddenly dun wan go anywhere except my room... feel neglected, like no one cares... never mind, watever. i'll jus face everything alone. watever happened to those i called friends.

forget it, mayb i should jus become a loner again.. at least then i can lie to myself that everything is my fault..

change...

meant to post this some time ago...

new room
new bed
new table
new cupboard
new class
new surroundings
new atmosphere
new specs...

does it equals to
new friends?
new me?
new beginning?

i wonder...

today...

handed in form for dropping of h2... dunno why did it in front of weihong... but seriously like dui bu qi da jia... everyone wan to be tgt as a class then i nvr do well, nid to leave the class... ah... dunno how sia... hope sherry can stay wif the class though.. then onli 3 leaving... ah well, at least nicholas staqying with the class. i guess some of u might be asking y i als o drop science then stay with the class. to that i onli got one ans. sry.

the same day...

went to try and appeal in the morning with my dad... was early, so got entertained earlier... saw mr dennis yeo.. first thing he see my results, he say, " i noe it sounds controversial, but the subject i think you shld drop is math." i hear le totally sian diao.. wah.. like tat confirm die liao... because i also cant drop math!!! he directly say will not allow me to continue 4h2. if i really want must write appeal letter. he say maths is must build on de. then my building blocks not there. then must catch up alot. then i also dunno wat to reply. like maybe already feel that im just trying my luck. if somehow can get then good. if not, then see how bah...
after that talk with the other parents and all, then later go see principal. principal say dun want let us continue, because last year she let students continue and end up they doing badly, so she and the school management regretting. so they dun wan let us try le. she say if really want can go see her. but without parents. well, everyone can tell she dun want let us take 4h2 liao..

so, now is see which subject to drop le.. not possible to drop maths [even if it is my worst subject] then chem and physics also cant drop, cos i feel i will get As for that in a lvl, so left econs. then drop econs, need learn a new subject, since what we learnt is different.

and also, if drop econs, then no more s25 le... sry everyone.. i really tried my best... it is just fate that we cant be together le... but will we still be together spiritually? even though we are not a class?

i dun want to leave, but then, i dont think i have any other choice.. sorry...im really sorry.

well, what else to say... sorry guys[and gals], bye. hope, and seriously hope can see u ppl again. u ppl made my jc 1 worth the while...

promotional results

yesterday, got promotional status... im promoted.. yet dun feel happy at all... unable to retain 4h2... going to appeal today... wonder how it will go... i hope i can retain 4h2.. if not, then byebye 08s25...



the world is a big stage, where one plays many roles. - shakespeare.

i wonder what is my role in this stage...

pw

pw is over. holidays hav started. not yet... tmr still nid get promo results... n got class bbq... wonder if i shld go...

4 nov

op is over... tmr left gpf filing.. then nth to do wif pw le...

haiz... i wonder who will be there for me... n what am i worth to u people...

opopop...

tmr op exam... then all is over le... for pw at least... somehow, have this nagging feeling in my heart that i jus rather my whole life be over...