emo... for a while...

wah... today at physics prac got some sort of mental breakdown... probably cos the practical so frustrating... stupid rod... then also fans off... was like melting lah... after i gave up on completing the practical, my mind started thinking of other stuff.
i thought,
i am so useless, always unable to do things fast and well, always need the help of others, always need others encouragement.
i think i might jus regret what i did, pouring my heart out and naively hoping that there would sure be something in return.
i am also so lousy, cant manage my time at all, almost everytime rushing my work till late at night or just giving up.
i am weak, no determination to do things, whether long term or jus for that moment.
i am indecisive, always thinking of doing things but then hesistating and giving jus bcos i was afraid of what others might think and how others will react.
in conclusion, i am useless, weak, lousy, indecisive and nvr think abt things thoroughly(maybe only)... therefore, there is no point for me to live on(sarcastically).
also, i think i might jus hav to give up what i am doing... bcos, i might jus be not suitable to be the one.

school...

Today, i was in school from hmm... lets see, 730(cos it was raining and freaking stuck outside school) till around close to 8! (cos of physics test... i****ic) That is like freaking 12 plus hrs leh... anyway, excited that i am having elects camp on friday! yeah! looking forward to it... haha thats it for this post i think... a change from the other emo posts... haha lol...

random post

jus something random...

What Edwin Lau Xinyou Means

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore. You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions. You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

courage...

it takes more courage to do certain things than others. haiz. today feel very sian... cos didnt hav the courage to do what i actually planned to do... i wonder if i just lost my opportunity... haiz... must live with it... who ask myself do not have courage to do such a simple thing... haiz... sadded...

Despair...

haiz... today jus shot out of my mouth and hurt someone that i really care for... sian... somehow still cant change that part of me... i really cant help it... Why!?! although she doesnt show it, i think she is feeling very hurt right now... who noes maybe she even crying.. haiz... how can i change myself? i really don want to hurt anyone else anymore... really in despair....

A candle in the darkness

was looking around a lot of my frens blogs and have noticed somethings they said abt me. the things they said touched me deeply and for once, i felt that i was no longer alone, and actually had frens that truly cared. for that, i want to say a sincere," thank u"

Liking someone?

meant to post this some time ago... the other time, jianning was asking something abt having[or not] something on the finger. and he said that it tells whether u hav someone that u like... apparently, it says that there is someone i like, and i acknowledge this fact. the problem is, i dont really noe who is it that i like.. sounds a bit lame but i donno whether i am indecisive or whatever, but the thing is, what is liking someone? cos i dont even noe if i really like anyone. haiz... will this be another worry? or jus something that will pass...