friends

pondering for a while now...

i feel that i have been a bad friend... well, at least not that gd a friend that is...
since entering jc, i either have been overly concerned about them, sometimes even smothering them even...
but to the rest(majority) of my friends, i feel that somehow i have been neglecting them, like seldom talking to them, and not really knowing wat is going on with their lives nowadays...

somehow feel like i maybe shld do smth abt it. no more neglecting friends, but not being overbearing at the same time. moderation!

Gd luck for ur studies everyone! esp those that are having their exams soon!

wee.. found out how to use blogger alr. though the page is abit screwed. but then not much to post abt though. =s

I SHOULD BE STUDYING!

one selfish wish.
though i doubt it will ever be fufilled...

why is the world filled with selfish and hypocritical ppl... (i know.. it includes me..) isnt there some higher order that regulates such stuff? where is the so called god that people deem to exist. why doesnt he help out those he created? because we dun believe in him? then doesnt make him selfish and immature as well...

we live in a weird world with no answers.

always on the outside... wonder what will really matter.

somehow things seem so familiar yet so distant.

missing...

well, today was the first day the 9th went to school without our golden nametags... well, the feeling is really hmm.. dunno how to phrase it...

well, it feels weird that for the past year, the nametag has forged such great relationships with the council badge and college pin, and yet, as of yesterday, it is forcefully separated from the rest, thrown carelessly to one corner of the house, never to be together again with the council badge and college pin...

i guess all of the 9th feel the same, that lack of responsibilities, the lack of 'weight' on our shoulders (10th will understand wat i mean by weight soon) the sudden awkward freedom, like being thrown out into the wide countryside, not knowing wat to do next... it just feels weird, and i feel abit lost...

haiz, council is special. in the way that it is not something that we can go back to. if u are part of sports cca, u can always go back and play the sport. however, if u are in council, there is no way to experience the same thing over again... how i wish we can turn back time, to go through all the things over again....

i miss council...


9th council... always made of stars...