life ain't a bed/bunch (cant rmb) of roses, if i dont rmb wrongly this was what someone said.
lol. anyways, i feel that even if life was a bunch of roses, roses also have thorns, but i guess these thorns are too insignificant to describe the impacts and changes that things have to one's flow of life.
I guess in one's life, we will encounter countless problems, or shld i say changes, things that go in a way different from how u want it to. Well, i guess everyone has the same mentality of denial, including myself i should say... It is always the " why me", " why this" " why now" " why like that", " i dont want it like this" etc. well, i guess this shows how we always want and subconsciously think that things should go smoothly, the way we want it.
Well, i guess im really a true example of such a behaviour, somehow i cant stop thinking how many times it has been that i always thought things were going smoothly, and then felt like i had hit a brick wall when things didnt turn out how i thought they would be. After some time, and quite a bit of thinking, if only i didnt lose myself to the situation, things could have been different, yet, i always thought i could just try to resist what was happening, forcing it to just change back to how it was. Well, in the end i guess 硬碰硬 only ended up in me being shattered.
most of the time, i always blinded myself when i just focused on one single thing/person/moment. Though i know nothing can change that, and i think few if not none will even read this in the first place, i truly regret quite a lot of my actions and how i handled certain things, which at times affected others as well...
to be continued... ack.. have to sleep liao..
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