Some stuff that came randomly to my head while otw home, which was mainly about how people tend to seek out validation and assurance, on their choices, their decisions, their life.
Like everyone else, I always feel that much more confident/reassured when someone confirms things that I think or say. Be it a way of life, or just a weakness on our parts, it shows that people are still rather easy to be influenced by the decisions of others.
Had an idea to get a good/enjoyable meal every 1/2 weeks for myself, and found that I was telling that to some friends when i got the chance. Partly, it was to invite them if they wanted to join me, but also, perhaps I wanted people to agree that it was a good idea.
Fear plays a big part in the lives of people. Not saying that fear is bad in any means, as it keeps us controlled, and self-protecting. Would be bad if everyone shouts "Yolo!" and runs across any road without checking for traffic right.
I guess the important thing is to have friends around which you can consult/share about your ideas, people that help you better your life. It definitely wouldn't work being alone all the time. Hopefully can find more friends that I am able to share anything under the world with. I'm sure in time I probably would. But who would want to wait. :P
Thursday, August 28, 2014
Sunday, August 10, 2014
It's been a long while since I ever blogged, or even visited this blog. Doubt many people even know of it, or read it nowadays.
Anyways, just wrote a first facebook note about growing up.
As I grow up, I feel I'm better at noticing my surroundings, gauging people's thoughts and actions to a certain extent. However, I'm also better at blocking out such stuff, and living my life in my own shell i crafted for myself, with the rules i set for myself.
However, many things have happened which make me question the need to change.
People grow older, things happen, actions need to be taken.
Sure, I can just ignore and treat it that nothing is part of my problem. But the question is, should I be acting that way?
A friend of mine decided to dedicate her 21st birthday to having people donate money for the Singapore Children's Society, money which people are willing to spend on gifts for her. Although I'm pretty sure her friends will probably still get her a present or something for her herself, she made me contemplate, what makes her action so different from what many others are doing. I'm not saying that its wrong to want to make your own 21st birthday a "About You" day, but it is something different. I can only recall for my 21st, i was just thinking about it being my birthday, although i didnt do much, it was a day about me.
I guess, it will be tough balancing a "remember to care about yourself" and "not to be selfish and care about yourself". However, I feel that for me, that should be something I should seek to achieve to the best I can, less i end up regretting in the future.
Timeline for change: 2-3 months, or maybe up to 1 semester.
Anyways, just wrote a first facebook note about growing up.
As I grow up, I feel I'm better at noticing my surroundings, gauging people's thoughts and actions to a certain extent. However, I'm also better at blocking out such stuff, and living my life in my own shell i crafted for myself, with the rules i set for myself.
However, many things have happened which make me question the need to change.
People grow older, things happen, actions need to be taken.
Sure, I can just ignore and treat it that nothing is part of my problem. But the question is, should I be acting that way?
A friend of mine decided to dedicate her 21st birthday to having people donate money for the Singapore Children's Society, money which people are willing to spend on gifts for her. Although I'm pretty sure her friends will probably still get her a present or something for her herself, she made me contemplate, what makes her action so different from what many others are doing. I'm not saying that its wrong to want to make your own 21st birthday a "About You" day, but it is something different. I can only recall for my 21st, i was just thinking about it being my birthday, although i didnt do much, it was a day about me.
I guess, it will be tough balancing a "remember to care about yourself" and "not to be selfish and care about yourself". However, I feel that for me, that should be something I should seek to achieve to the best I can, less i end up regretting in the future.
Timeline for change: 2-3 months, or maybe up to 1 semester.
Monday, January 30, 2012
10 yrs from now..
This post is here to remind myself, that for whatever i achieve in 10 yrs, it is not due to my own hard work, but due to the care and concern of those around me, especially my parents for without them, i will not be who I am today.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
KPOPfied
Well, back from MAMA ytd, awed by the aura of concert + getting so see so many artistes in real life for the first time...
Me Like!
lol. cant wait for nxt friday to come, SNSD concert! would be great if got to see SNSD in person like face to face.
but still, no fish prawn also gd. satisfied with seeing from afar.
Congrats to all MAMA winners btw!
Me Like!
lol. cant wait for nxt friday to come, SNSD concert! would be great if got to see SNSD in person like face to face.
but still, no fish prawn also gd. satisfied with seeing from afar.
Congrats to all MAMA winners btw!
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Time passes so quickly..
Time really passes by quickly, especially when u look back at wat has happened. Now, it is time to look towards the new yr. lol
7 days to MAMA
17 days to SNSD concert
23 days to Brunei
30 days to coming back from Brunei
39 days to last day of 2011. =)
ORD, here I come!
7 days to MAMA
17 days to SNSD concert
23 days to Brunei
30 days to coming back from Brunei
39 days to last day of 2011. =)
ORD, here I come!
Monday, October 24, 2011
Turning point
First blog post as a 20 yr old!
no more teenager liao. lol
Somehow, today felt rather different. although everything seems to be the same, the feeling is somehow different. Perhaps it is a 20yr old thing. lol.
However, on a serious note, being 20 means can no longer act like a kid anymore, must start to act like an adult already.
also, for the first time in a while, im spending money on something for short term enjoyment. going to 2 concerts this yr. LIKE! >.<
update on goals for the yr:
i think i seriously have to lose weight. damn. increasing work load.
at least 30 crunches per night.
Run 3 times a week ( mostly at gym)
start reading books again.
( book list - 7 habits, the 8th habit, and also find How to save your own life. lol)
*must find Cheese for weight-loss* haha
no more teenager liao. lol
Somehow, today felt rather different. although everything seems to be the same, the feeling is somehow different. Perhaps it is a 20yr old thing. lol.
However, on a serious note, being 20 means can no longer act like a kid anymore, must start to act like an adult already.
also, for the first time in a while, im spending money on something for short term enjoyment. going to 2 concerts this yr. LIKE! >.<
update on goals for the yr:
i think i seriously have to lose weight. damn. increasing work load.
at least 30 crunches per night.
Run 3 times a week ( mostly at gym)
start reading books again.
( book list - 7 habits, the 8th habit, and also find How to save your own life. lol)
*must find Cheese for weight-loss* haha
Monday, October 10, 2011
progress
commited myself to my first run after work... damn short though, cant help it too unfit le =(
also not progressing with the jap studying. must learn the alphabet first. lol. and my table is quite messed up. =(
on the bright side though, I'm officially an undergrad with SMU! =)
also not progressing with the jap studying. must learn the alphabet first. lol. and my table is quite messed up. =(
on the bright side though, I'm officially an undergrad with SMU! =)
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Goals till end of the year.
1. Drop to a weight of at most 80kg [still not light enough though :( ] - (go running at least 2 times a week.)
2. start learning Japanese and Korean ( at least 3 words per week)
3. Read up on Psychology
4. Study about trading.
5. Meet at least 10 old friends (not sure if possible. lol)
tbc and to be monitored.
2. start learning Japanese and Korean ( at least 3 words per week)
3. Read up on Psychology
4. Study about trading.
5. Meet at least 10 old friends (not sure if possible. lol)
tbc and to be monitored.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Blood donation
on friday, i donated my first bag of blood. or at least the blood was drawn out, dunno whether will be able to use it yet. lol. have to wait for the results that they send, who noes got problem then waste my blood. =(
anyways, the feeling wasnt that painful anyways, dunno why was quite nervous b4 the donation though, that they had to let me rest there first b4 drawing the blood. lol
anyways, the feeling wasnt that painful anyways, dunno why was quite nervous b4 the donation though, that they had to let me rest there first b4 drawing the blood. lol
Friday, July 15, 2011
friends
it's been awhile... but it has dawned on me often that i dun really noe how to keep ppl close to me close, they (or rather I) tend to drift away into my own world, unable to reach back to them, and when i try, most of the time there is no one there to grab that hand...
hmm...
just wondering, how do i make a real friend, and have a true friendship???
=(
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Saturday, May 14, 2011
note to self 2
believe in the power of " I can". focus more on what u can change and influence, rather than harping on wat u cannot.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Notes to self (part 1)
lol... just typing this post as a reminder to myself on how to do certain things...
Habits = where knowledge(what to, why to) meets skills (how to) and desire (want to)
without any of the 3, nothing that happens will really be permanent.
Do things with the inside- outside approach. No matter what is to be done/changed, first think of how changing yourself can change the situation, other than asking others to change.
tbc..
Habits = where knowledge(what to, why to) meets skills (how to) and desire (want to)
without any of the 3, nothing that happens will really be permanent.
Do things with the inside- outside approach. No matter what is to be done/changed, first think of how changing yourself can change the situation, other than asking others to change.
tbc..
Saturday, April 23, 2011
how people change...
Somehow just have the uncomfortable feeling that i really should get back to work, less my uni life will be hell (from the 2 years of not working my brain).
anyways, was reading a book where it dawned on me how true it was that people gradually change as they grow older, inprinted on by society on how to act and react to certain things that happen. The book wrote how we have become people who want people to change to suit how u wanted things to be, and not the other way round, which was actually how it should have been done. something i got from it so far (havent finished reading... =() is that
The way we see others, is never actually who they really are, but is always just who we make them out to be, from our beliefs, our experiences, our thoughts.
this in turns results in us having biased views against others, without actually knowing what is the true story behind their actions and behaviour. As a result, we tend to draw lines on people too quickly, making us become more selfish and self-centred.
another thing i learned is that for us to experience change in things around us, first of all, we have to change. our views have to change, how we react to things have to change.
therefore, i have to make it a point for me to change, to have a change in my life.
anyways, was reading a book where it dawned on me how true it was that people gradually change as they grow older, inprinted on by society on how to act and react to certain things that happen. The book wrote how we have become people who want people to change to suit how u wanted things to be, and not the other way round, which was actually how it should have been done. something i got from it so far (havent finished reading... =() is that
The way we see others, is never actually who they really are, but is always just who we make them out to be, from our beliefs, our experiences, our thoughts.
this in turns results in us having biased views against others, without actually knowing what is the true story behind their actions and behaviour. As a result, we tend to draw lines on people too quickly, making us become more selfish and self-centred.
another thing i learned is that for us to experience change in things around us, first of all, we have to change. our views have to change, how we react to things have to change.
therefore, i have to make it a point for me to change, to have a change in my life.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
fail...
somehow, it just felt worse seeing others taking results then me taking my own...
ack... perhaps that just means that i really din put in the effort, whereas i felt that others really did. unfortunately, they din reap the rewards of their effort...
lol. last saturday was council outing, which was my doing. ended up quite... "err..." would be the correct expression i guess... ah well, will hav to do better nxt time i guess, esp not puting a gathering in the middle of everyones exams...
i guess so far this blog has really been where i throw everything out, so that i can face each day with a how to put it, hmm... refreshed mind. haiz. damn crap sia. i realise as each day pass by how much time im just wasting because i rather relax n hav fun now then use my time in something different. time to change from NATO no action talk only to ATAA all talk all action. which means it is time i start studying again. time to be disciplined , uni just round the corner. cant fail again... not this time..
ack... perhaps that just means that i really din put in the effort, whereas i felt that others really did. unfortunately, they din reap the rewards of their effort...
lol. last saturday was council outing, which was my doing. ended up quite... "err..." would be the correct expression i guess... ah well, will hav to do better nxt time i guess, esp not puting a gathering in the middle of everyones exams...
i guess so far this blog has really been where i throw everything out, so that i can face each day with a how to put it, hmm... refreshed mind. haiz. damn crap sia. i realise as each day pass by how much time im just wasting because i rather relax n hav fun now then use my time in something different. time to change from NATO no action talk only to ATAA all talk all action. which means it is time i start studying again. time to be disciplined , uni just round the corner. cant fail again... not this time..
Thursday, January 27, 2011
New year resolutions...
ok.. i guess i SHOULD really start writing down the plans for this new year....
1. LOSE WEIGHT!!! damn... getting fat again...
2. learn certain piano pieces... just feel like learning dunno why. lol
3. tbc...
1. LOSE WEIGHT!!! damn... getting fat again...
2. learn certain piano pieces... just feel like learning dunno why. lol
3. tbc...
Friday, January 21, 2011
Life - subconscious ( self before others)
life ain't a bed/bunch (cant rmb) of roses, if i dont rmb wrongly this was what someone said.
lol. anyways, i feel that even if life was a bunch of roses, roses also have thorns, but i guess these thorns are too insignificant to describe the impacts and changes that things have to one's flow of life.
I guess in one's life, we will encounter countless problems, or shld i say changes, things that go in a way different from how u want it to. Well, i guess everyone has the same mentality of denial, including myself i should say... It is always the " why me", " why this" " why now" " why like that", " i dont want it like this" etc. well, i guess this shows how we always want and subconsciously think that things should go smoothly, the way we want it.
Well, i guess im really a true example of such a behaviour, somehow i cant stop thinking how many times it has been that i always thought things were going smoothly, and then felt like i had hit a brick wall when things didnt turn out how i thought they would be. After some time, and quite a bit of thinking, if only i didnt lose myself to the situation, things could have been different, yet, i always thought i could just try to resist what was happening, forcing it to just change back to how it was. Well, in the end i guess 硬碰硬 only ended up in me being shattered.
most of the time, i always blinded myself when i just focused on one single thing/person/moment. Though i know nothing can change that, and i think few if not none will even read this in the first place, i truly regret quite a lot of my actions and how i handled certain things, which at times affected others as well...
to be continued... ack.. have to sleep liao..
lol. anyways, i feel that even if life was a bunch of roses, roses also have thorns, but i guess these thorns are too insignificant to describe the impacts and changes that things have to one's flow of life.
I guess in one's life, we will encounter countless problems, or shld i say changes, things that go in a way different from how u want it to. Well, i guess everyone has the same mentality of denial, including myself i should say... It is always the " why me", " why this" " why now" " why like that", " i dont want it like this" etc. well, i guess this shows how we always want and subconsciously think that things should go smoothly, the way we want it.
Well, i guess im really a true example of such a behaviour, somehow i cant stop thinking how many times it has been that i always thought things were going smoothly, and then felt like i had hit a brick wall when things didnt turn out how i thought they would be. After some time, and quite a bit of thinking, if only i didnt lose myself to the situation, things could have been different, yet, i always thought i could just try to resist what was happening, forcing it to just change back to how it was. Well, in the end i guess 硬碰硬 only ended up in me being shattered.
most of the time, i always blinded myself when i just focused on one single thing/person/moment. Though i know nothing can change that, and i think few if not none will even read this in the first place, i truly regret quite a lot of my actions and how i handled certain things, which at times affected others as well...
to be continued... ack.. have to sleep liao..
Monday, January 17, 2011
horoscope
due to some guy's ingenious idea to propose a new horoscope sign, i have mysteriously been changed from a libra/scorpio to a virgo. for those who dun noe, that is like a jump of 1 to 2 months in the dates. lol..
shall go find out how virgo symbolizes me soon. lol...
well, the new horoscope dates i found are as follows ( might not be accurate)
capricorn: jan 20 to feb 16
aquarius: feb 16 to mar 11
pisces: mar 11 to april 18
aries: april 18 to may 13
taurus: may 13 to june 21
gemini: june 21 to july 20
cancer: july 20 to aug 10
leo: aug 10 to sep 16
virgo: sep 16 to oct 30
libra: oct 30 to nov 23
scorpio: nov 23 to nov 29
ophiuchus: nov 29 to dec 17
sagittarus: dec 17 to jan 20
edit: apparently it only affects ppl born after a certain year...
shall go find out how virgo symbolizes me soon. lol...
well, the new horoscope dates i found are as follows ( might not be accurate)
capricorn: jan 20 to feb 16
aquarius: feb 16 to mar 11
pisces: mar 11 to april 18
aries: april 18 to may 13
taurus: may 13 to june 21
gemini: june 21 to july 20
cancer: july 20 to aug 10
leo: aug 10 to sep 16
virgo: sep 16 to oct 30
libra: oct 30 to nov 23
scorpio: nov 23 to nov 29
ophiuchus: nov 29 to dec 17
sagittarus: dec 17 to jan 20
edit: apparently it only affects ppl born after a certain year...
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
2011
hmm... maybe should find some time to post abt wat has happened last yr n some new yr resolutions.. lol
just for reminders sake..
just for reminders sake..
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