fail...

somehow, it just felt worse seeing others taking results then me taking my own...

ack... perhaps that just means that i really din put in the effort, whereas i felt that others really did. unfortunately, they din reap the rewards of their effort...

lol. last saturday was council outing, which was my doing. ended up quite... "err..." would be the correct expression i guess... ah well, will hav to do better nxt time i guess, esp not puting a gathering in the middle of everyones exams...


i guess so far this blog has really been where i throw everything out, so that i can face each day with a how to put it, hmm... refreshed mind. haiz. damn crap sia. i realise as each day pass by how much time im just wasting because i rather relax n hav fun now then use my time in something different. time to change from NATO no action talk only to ATAA all talk all action. which means it is time i start studying again. time to be disciplined , uni just round the corner. cant fail again... not this time..

New year resolutions...

ok.. i guess i SHOULD really start writing down the plans for this new year....

1. LOSE WEIGHT!!! damn... getting fat again...

2. learn certain piano pieces... just feel like learning dunno why. lol

3. tbc...

Life - subconscious ( self before others)

life ain't a bed/bunch (cant rmb) of roses, if i dont rmb wrongly this was what someone said.

lol. anyways, i feel that even if life was a bunch of roses, roses also have thorns, but i guess these thorns are too insignificant to describe the impacts and changes that things have to one's flow of life.

I guess in one's life, we will encounter countless problems, or shld i say changes, things that go in a way different from how u want it to. Well, i guess everyone has the same mentality of denial, including myself i should say... It is always the " why me", " why this" " why now" " why like that", " i dont want it like this" etc. well, i guess this shows how we always want and subconsciously think that things should go smoothly, the way we want it.

Well, i guess im really a true example of such a behaviour, somehow i cant stop thinking how many times it has been that i always thought things were going smoothly, and then felt like i had hit a brick wall when things didnt turn out how i thought they would be. After some time, and quite a bit of thinking, if only i didnt lose myself to the situation, things could have been different, yet, i always thought i could just try to resist what was happening, forcing it to just change back to how it was. Well, in the end i guess 硬碰硬 only ended up in me being shattered.
most of the time, i always blinded myself when i just focused on one single thing/person/moment. Though i know nothing can change that, and i think few if not none will even read this in the first place, i truly regret quite a lot of my actions and how i handled certain things, which at times affected others as well...

to be continued... ack.. have to sleep liao..

horoscope

due to some guy's ingenious idea to propose a new horoscope sign, i have mysteriously been changed from a libra/scorpio to a virgo. for those who dun noe, that is like a jump of 1 to 2 months in the dates. lol..

shall go find out how virgo symbolizes me soon. lol...


well, the new horoscope dates i found are as follows ( might not be accurate)

capricorn: jan 20 to feb 16
aquarius: feb 16 to mar 11
pisces: mar 11 to april 18
aries: april 18 to may 13
taurus: may 13 to june 21
gemini: june 21 to july 20
cancer: july 20 to aug 10
leo: aug 10 to sep 16
virgo: sep 16 to oct 30
libra: oct 30 to nov 23
scorpio: nov 23 to nov 29
ophiuchus: nov 29 to dec 17
sagittarus: dec 17 to jan 20

edit: apparently it only affects ppl born after a certain year...

2011

hmm... maybe should find some time to post abt wat has happened last yr n some new yr resolutions.. lol

just for reminders sake..

SCS

next chapter of army life taking place, it's been a week since i entered scs as a sct. (crap. i suddenly forgot wat it stood for) it has been an even longer time since i updated this webpage which i wonder how many ppl even noes abt it. lol. ah well.. another 7 weeks to the end of foundation term at specialist cadet school, then it will be on to the professional term of sergeant training... i hope i get posted to where i want to. it will be damn gd. lol. ah well. alot of experiences during bmt, shall think of whether to post abt them when i want to. lol
till next time...

army

first day of army : tmr. bye guys. see u guys soon. when im fitter, slimmer and having less hair... lol