Notes to self (part 1)

lol... just typing this post as a reminder to myself on how to do certain things...


Habits = where knowledge(what to, why to) meets skills (how to) and desire (want to)

without any of the 3, nothing that happens will really be permanent.

Do things with the inside- outside approach. No matter what is to be done/changed, first think of how changing yourself can change the situation, other than asking others to change.

tbc..

how people change...

Somehow just have the uncomfortable feeling that i really should get back to work, less my uni life will be hell (from the 2 years of not working my brain).

anyways, was reading a book where it dawned on me how true it was that people gradually change as they grow older, inprinted on by society on how to act and react to certain things that happen. The book wrote how we have become people who want people to change to suit how u wanted things to be, and not the other way round, which was actually how it should have been done. something i got from it so far (havent finished reading... =() is that

The way we see others, is never actually who they really are, but is always just who we make them out to be, from our beliefs, our experiences, our thoughts.

this in turns results in us having biased views against others, without actually knowing what is the true story behind their actions and behaviour. As a result, we tend to draw lines on people too quickly, making us become more selfish and self-centred.


another thing i learned is that for us to experience change in things around us, first of all, we have to change. our views have to change, how we react to things have to change.


therefore, i have to make it a point for me to change, to have a change in my life.

fail...

somehow, it just felt worse seeing others taking results then me taking my own...

ack... perhaps that just means that i really din put in the effort, whereas i felt that others really did. unfortunately, they din reap the rewards of their effort...

lol. last saturday was council outing, which was my doing. ended up quite... "err..." would be the correct expression i guess... ah well, will hav to do better nxt time i guess, esp not puting a gathering in the middle of everyones exams...


i guess so far this blog has really been where i throw everything out, so that i can face each day with a how to put it, hmm... refreshed mind. haiz. damn crap sia. i realise as each day pass by how much time im just wasting because i rather relax n hav fun now then use my time in something different. time to change from NATO no action talk only to ATAA all talk all action. which means it is time i start studying again. time to be disciplined , uni just round the corner. cant fail again... not this time..

New year resolutions...

ok.. i guess i SHOULD really start writing down the plans for this new year....

1. LOSE WEIGHT!!! damn... getting fat again...

2. learn certain piano pieces... just feel like learning dunno why. lol

3. tbc...

Life - subconscious ( self before others)

life ain't a bed/bunch (cant rmb) of roses, if i dont rmb wrongly this was what someone said.

lol. anyways, i feel that even if life was a bunch of roses, roses also have thorns, but i guess these thorns are too insignificant to describe the impacts and changes that things have to one's flow of life.

I guess in one's life, we will encounter countless problems, or shld i say changes, things that go in a way different from how u want it to. Well, i guess everyone has the same mentality of denial, including myself i should say... It is always the " why me", " why this" " why now" " why like that", " i dont want it like this" etc. well, i guess this shows how we always want and subconsciously think that things should go smoothly, the way we want it.

Well, i guess im really a true example of such a behaviour, somehow i cant stop thinking how many times it has been that i always thought things were going smoothly, and then felt like i had hit a brick wall when things didnt turn out how i thought they would be. After some time, and quite a bit of thinking, if only i didnt lose myself to the situation, things could have been different, yet, i always thought i could just try to resist what was happening, forcing it to just change back to how it was. Well, in the end i guess 硬碰硬 only ended up in me being shattered.
most of the time, i always blinded myself when i just focused on one single thing/person/moment. Though i know nothing can change that, and i think few if not none will even read this in the first place, i truly regret quite a lot of my actions and how i handled certain things, which at times affected others as well...

to be continued... ack.. have to sleep liao..

horoscope

due to some guy's ingenious idea to propose a new horoscope sign, i have mysteriously been changed from a libra/scorpio to a virgo. for those who dun noe, that is like a jump of 1 to 2 months in the dates. lol..

shall go find out how virgo symbolizes me soon. lol...


well, the new horoscope dates i found are as follows ( might not be accurate)

capricorn: jan 20 to feb 16
aquarius: feb 16 to mar 11
pisces: mar 11 to april 18
aries: april 18 to may 13
taurus: may 13 to june 21
gemini: june 21 to july 20
cancer: july 20 to aug 10
leo: aug 10 to sep 16
virgo: sep 16 to oct 30
libra: oct 30 to nov 23
scorpio: nov 23 to nov 29
ophiuchus: nov 29 to dec 17
sagittarus: dec 17 to jan 20

edit: apparently it only affects ppl born after a certain year...

2011

hmm... maybe should find some time to post abt wat has happened last yr n some new yr resolutions.. lol

just for reminders sake..